Growing up, I was never in need. I was always fed, clothed and loved as every child should be. When I was little, I attributed this to my parents as they worked to provide for our family. But as I get older, I am starting to realize that God was/is behind it all. God is the one who is faithful to provide for my needs. He provided for my parents, who in turn, provided for me. It is because of my wonderful parents that, so many times I have trusted them more than God.
I looked to my dad to be my security so many times. When I had a big decision to make, a spiritual question, or anything really, I always went to dad first. I had to know his opinions, thoughts, concerns, etc. on whatever I was facing. I wanted his approval and blessing for whatever I was going through-THEN I would pray about it and read Scripture. I went to dad first because I knew that he would pray about it for me and he knew the Bible backwards and forwards. My confidence would come from knowing that dad thought it was okay. Instead of immediately taking my concerns/fears/worries to the Lord and seeking Scripture, I took them to my dad. Even as I write this, I know that I am so blessed to have had a dad who provided me with almost too much security as I know so many people where that is not the case.
Thankfully, as I entered the "real world" about a year ago, I was experiencing first hand the Lord's faithfulness and provision. Now that my dad is gone, I am learning to seek the Lord first, above all. I can no longer rely on my dad for my guidance and security, it's just me and God.
"Such confidence as this is ours through Christ before God. Not that we are competent in ourselves to claim anything for ourselves, but our competence comes from God. He has made us competent as ministers of a new covenant-not of the letter but of the Spirit; for the letter kills but the Spirit gives life." 2 Corinthians 3:4-6
For His Glory,
Jessica
For His Glory,
Jessica
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